Sad news

I don't really know what to write today.  I just received news from my mother that my cousin who is about the same age as me, passed away today.  I do not know any of the details about how she died, but it certainly reminded me how fragile life is, that I am not guaranteed tomorrow.  A lot of recovery thoughts have flooded my mind: living one day at a time, trusting God for each moment of each day, etc.  But more than anything, the importance of knowing where I stand before the Lord is so important and that being settled, I need to be about the Lord's business--telling others about Him.  I know that I am called to serve Him in the area of recovery and specifically with those struggling with same sex attractions, but I can't help but think that His purpose for my life is even higher than that.  I pray that my zeal for telling the truth about the issue of same sex attraction and lust never gets in the way of loving people and telling them the even greater truth of God's love for all people.  May I show compassion and love for those who struggle in the same way that I do and for everyone else.  I believe all recovery issues matter to the Lord, but through everything I think, say, and do, I must have love otherwise it is all for nothing.  Lord please help me to remember that.

I will miss my cousin and I pray that she has a home in my Father's Kingdom, in His presence for all of eternity.

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